They keep telling me to love me. It tourtured me. How can they expect me to put such a heavy toll on my heavy heart?  

"how can You love without loving yourself?" 

Lol because i love you so much i forgot what it felt like to hate myself.. Idiot. 

Let me love you, let me love me. 

I didn't want to shoot you. 

I never seen myself hurting you.. 

So I slit my wrist instead 

SPEECHLESSSSSSSSSSS

To: Ashley

A Queen 

You are a queen

Beautiful with beauty unseen

As the strongest curve 

Yes the strongest

Your smile

Illuminating the soul

As you speak

The words flow

Flowing like a stream

I lay in your presence 

As your soft words take me away

Filling me with passion

Yearning for your love 

Yes, the love of a queen

Though you've been hurt

Your heart poisoned 

Scarred by the ill intent 

I seek to repair 

If you'll let me 

My queen

There's no upgrade after me. Not even the looks.. You gon' go from MYYYY HEARTT, to what?

"YOUR ENERGY 

FEELS

SO DAMN GOOD TO 

ME" 

We don't owe anyone any explanations for our anger. Not a soul!

"guided by my heritage of a love of beauty and respect for strength -- in search of my mother's garden, I found my own"

I want it to be fluent, no interruptions

When we stopped believing, we stopped feeling. The passion flew, the chemistry expired and the inspiration ran tired. I fell in love in a hopeless place. God took you to test how rotten my heart could get. I'm still breathing but my gut whispered she's walking dead. 

So when I drove from a princess to a queen, you didn't know what to do. It wasn't too physical, drift a little more mental. I said "no" now, and yes when I wanted. The negative vibes were shaken and insecurities were slowly breaking.. God is able. 

Our Father or Our mother can use anything in the world to advance you. Good or Bad. 

When love, when loving is my blessing.

I'm losing my touch.

I'm losing my love. 

Why am I letting it go? 

when you love your best friend, you thank God for em.

It was all good just a week ago.

But I still felt something.. Past your raring penetration, and blurring motivations, past the need for you to undermine my steady dedication. I felt for all the pieces of you I knew was broken. I sought to pick up all of you that you didn't know you were missing. I fell for the potential you, while standing in the depths of the monster in you. 

Maybe we reached the mountain peak and there was no more place to climb. 

Start over Beyoncé 

you were my house. i found a home in you. in your reassuring eyes, in your convincing hold. i was sure you had no consequence// as i pushed against myself, I found myself best for m y s e l f. Realized i grew homesick for arms that were destine for someone else

you werent a book.
you were merely a chapter.
so all i did was flip the page.
"i bet you thought this song was about you"

REPOSTIN'

Who knew i had feelings on March 11th?

Just stop telling me you feel me cause you will never feel me. You will never feel the strikes of wholeness understanding me whenever I see you. You'll never understand how quickly I fell for you, how soft your soul called for me like it knew me. It knew me before you knew me, before I knew you. Don't ever tell me you feel me .. Your fingers are way too clean, a tad too pure. A hand that should be dipped in gold. I know you could never feel me cause your heart is still whole.

Satan sent his daughter

Idk. Just going no where fast, leaving no time for life.. Had the hardest time accepting that the give up took all my might .. Left here with no bark but way too much bite. I even managed to put up a fight when the angel came to save me that night

I fell in love with the worst good guy.

lets find a place where we can breath.

somewhere between dark and light, where our wrongs become right.
BEAUTIFUL BY INDIA ARIE